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by cjoyntpoetryMarch 10, 2019March 10, 2019

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my body is stronger than i'd like it to be it stands tall when my mind is weak it preserveres through what i can no longer endure it's always been more convincing alluring and interesting my body has always meant more than my words it masks neglect poision and stress it incites interest it hides my handicap i am not as strong as my body would have you believe so much emphasis on the physical so much trust in what we see there's too much in our peripheral yet somehow you don't really see me just my body no you don't even hear me i am weak

did you know my daughter is going to give me a run for my money like i did to you that my son will break my heart when he falls in love with somebody else but i'll be thrilled to meet her i just wish you got to meet their Dad he keeps me in line a wee bit better than you did it's not your fault the hormones finally leveled out bet you knew i'd be a ball of nerves that i'd want to be the best the most humbling experience yet you never felt like you measured up i don't feel like i do either you were so maybe i am just wanted to let you know i can hear your "i told you so" from the stars also to say, might want to keep it down wouldn't want you to get kicked out

i rarely let my mind wander to where you are now i seldom hear your laugh in sitcoms see your smile reflecting back as i brush my teeth i will admit i have laughed when i've lost my keys i've turned into my mother i think i know when my sweet tooth acts up when i give away the last of my change those times i'm angry and my husband makes me laugh your speciality tonight i'll let myself grin with my tongue stuck out J.J.R. Tolkien said not all those who wander are lost it's only then i find you again

grief is infinite your days change in drastic yet seemingly insignificant ways a song sung alone a number forgotten when you no longer reach for the phone that's when you know you've changed too sometimes your skin gets warm as if you've been touched you'll look at the clock and see those tiny symbolic synchronicities they almost fill that incredible void you know the one it sometimes feels like the only thing you have left after they've left you all alone the part that gets me are those rare instances of joy where you allow yourself to be present but receive one instead the gift of grief it doesn't leave it serves as a reminder how much better would this moment be if you were here to share it with me with us a good day is often when it comes to visit a bad day is not much different grief is the elephant in the room every room every day i'd call to say i've missed you but i forgot your number after it got disconnected after i spent the first year listening to your voicemail on replay yes time passes as it always has as it always will in this fast paced world is that why it feels like only a day has gone by to then feel like you were never here at all were you a figment of my imagination someone i knew in a past life see memory like grief is tricky i'm not who i was and you well you are my infinite

That's how it ends up

That's how it always goes

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